No me dejes

No me dejes
Sin ti, yo no soy nada
Sin ti, me desvanezco
Me esfumo por el tormento
de esta vida sin sentido.

No te vayas
Ánclame a la vida
Dame una razón de respirar
Sé mi compañera

Abrázame con ternura
Apacigua mi ansiedad
Calma mi mente
Doma este malestar

Seamos eternos
aunque sea por un momento
Enséñame a aceptar la realidad
y a lidiar con la existencia.

Gracias por acompañarme
Toma mi mano fuertemente
No me sueltes

Walked the path

I just read my old entries and it's been quite interesting for me how many of the things I wrote don't express or match the person I am in this moment. I feel glad about it. I've made progress and I've made mistakes. I now understand that's part of life and, in the end, they help me grow as a person.
There are certain things I still feel, though. There are certain thought I cannot get rid of; maybe they've become part of my personality. I hope that's not the case. I'd like to shed them somehow.
Nonetheless, the point I was trying to make is that now I am much more self confident than before. I wish I continue leading that path.

Emptiness

I really feel trapped here.
There's just too much pressure upon me.
I really hope I can leave this place as possible.
I'm not talking about life.
Life is so precious.
I'm talking about this specific place.
I really want to go.
I want to become free.

Lost

I feel lost
Lost in reality
Lost in desperation
Lost in sickness
Lost in pain

I feel despair
I feel lost

Back

It's been almost two years since I haven't written anything here.
The changes in my life have been enormous. Yet, I still haven't got where I would like to.
Many things have happened; or perhaps, the lack of event have got me think I should be humble and lower my ambitions.
I feel like trapped in this cage of reality. On the one hand, it's good. I can see things with clarity and I know where my feet are grounded. On the other hand, it's limiting. Reality is a rough place to live. Yet, there is no other place to go.
I don't know when I'm coming back. I just know I must keep going.